Afresh- Day 6
Feel so afresh!~!~~! and new!~~!
The beginning of my new life without him, starts off quite an easy. I woke up gave him a msg of "gd morning" and goes to work. He then gave me a call during his lunch time to check on me. Then before I go class, I gave him a msg "I going to class". At night I go back home, gave him a msg of "gd night" and thats all. See so easy!~~(^-^) and I can do that for the rest of the days to come.
Why?
1) I dont think of him that much liao- think I have been getting too dependent on him, so is time for me to get a hold of myself.
2) Too many upcoming activities:
- dating with my gfs
- exploring new things to do
- thinking of going back to the band. But have to check out with a friend see I can join their band activity. And also I'm abit rusty!~~ Have not touch my instrument since the day I left secondary school that is about emm... 8 years!~~ Ahhh!~~! I'm getting old!~ But I would love to go back, coz I love to play the flute!~!~
- suddenly thought of joining my friend chinese dance troop. Don't know my age can still bend and flex or not!~~
3) I think is also best for him to have some personal space now. Part of the reason he has broke down is that he is stress up with his work-load and the current unit he is taking. The unit is the last offer already, so if he fails he can't continue his course. On top of that he have to squeeze the little time that he has to accompany me. If its for me, I same too can't handle with the load.
4) the tarot card says so... http://brian320.luv-u-4ever.net/tarot1.swf Very true leh, it says about my current situation and advise me what I should do. Hmm... but it could be just concide
Kind of getting addictive to blogging... every day must blog, nothing to talk also must write something. And not forgetting reading my friends' blog. Althought strictly speaking its a invasion of privacy (I study that in my course- private space vs public space, the cause of technology, blurring the two spaces), but it creates a form of pleasure- "pleasure of reading"... Crap!~~ what kind of theory is that! (-_-!) Now I develop a "pleasure of writing".... (-_-!). But the point is, blogging is de-stressing!~!~ It's like more or less talking to you see and reflect your daily action. When writing you actually put yourself outside, to see the inside of you. Chim!~!~ Another crap theory that I learn in my course of study. keke
So depressing hor, the more you study, the more crap you learn, the more you find out that the world is NOT PERFECT!~!~ To make it worst I took sociology and now Im on the topic about marriages... people around me keep talking about why get married?, nowsaday divorces rate so high because we are so indiviualistic blah blah blah... ya I know so sad that the society has taken such a turn...
Its coming 2 weeks since our speration... dint know we have seperated so long, but its a good sign now. Since more or less we are both settle back to our own life.... can't help to still feel abit sad about what has happen.. but can't help, maybe is the GOD's will to send us a test to prove ourselves whether we are worthy of the love.
Sometime I cant stand a friend of mine- can't mention who she is but not my circle of friends. She is so ignorant... and sad to say she has a small brain... She told me you must have *** to keep a guy with you... What Kind of theory is that?? She even told me that her bf say, if she don't have *** with him for some time, he would rather leave her... so sad to say that their relationship is depend so much on physical rather than mental & spirtual.. To make it even sad, she has to keep an eye on her bf action every time (but they have common friends- coz her bf is anti-social dont have friends at all). I wish I can tell her, believe me if you let him loss for a week or so, he will hook up with another girl and will never come back. Coz he "DON'T LOVE YOU AT ALL!~!~ ALL HE WANTS IS YOUR BODY, STUPID!"(-_-!) Why you need to benefit these dirty guys, that love you only because of that?? Is it obvious that when he say " I will break off with you, if you dont have *** with for some time" (-_-!). Is that called love?? NO!~!~~ NO!~! Love is not equal to ***~~! Well, just want to write out so that I can feel better. or else its a secret so hard to keep leh!~!~ and I can't tell this to her face.. Maybe I should tell, been a sister of hers, I should tell her that. But on second thought, better not- She will hate me or maybe she won't listen to what I say also.
The beginning of my new life without him, starts off quite an easy. I woke up gave him a msg of "gd morning" and goes to work. He then gave me a call during his lunch time to check on me. Then before I go class, I gave him a msg "I going to class". At night I go back home, gave him a msg of "gd night" and thats all. See so easy!~~(^-^) and I can do that for the rest of the days to come.
Why?
1) I dont think of him that much liao- think I have been getting too dependent on him, so is time for me to get a hold of myself.
2) Too many upcoming activities:
- dating with my gfs
- exploring new things to do
- thinking of going back to the band. But have to check out with a friend see I can join their band activity. And also I'm abit rusty!~~ Have not touch my instrument since the day I left secondary school that is about emm... 8 years!~~ Ahhh!~~! I'm getting old!~ But I would love to go back, coz I love to play the flute!~!~
- suddenly thought of joining my friend chinese dance troop. Don't know my age can still bend and flex or not!~~
3) I think is also best for him to have some personal space now. Part of the reason he has broke down is that he is stress up with his work-load and the current unit he is taking. The unit is the last offer already, so if he fails he can't continue his course. On top of that he have to squeeze the little time that he has to accompany me. If its for me, I same too can't handle with the load.
4) the tarot card says so... http://brian320.luv-u-4ever.net/tarot1.swf Very true leh, it says about my current situation and advise me what I should do. Hmm... but it could be just concide
Kind of getting addictive to blogging... every day must blog, nothing to talk also must write something. And not forgetting reading my friends' blog. Althought strictly speaking its a invasion of privacy (I study that in my course- private space vs public space, the cause of technology, blurring the two spaces), but it creates a form of pleasure- "pleasure of reading"... Crap!~~ what kind of theory is that! (-_-!) Now I develop a "pleasure of writing".... (-_-!). But the point is, blogging is de-stressing!~!~ It's like more or less talking to you see and reflect your daily action. When writing you actually put yourself outside, to see the inside of you. Chim!~!~ Another crap theory that I learn in my course of study. keke
So depressing hor, the more you study, the more crap you learn, the more you find out that the world is NOT PERFECT!~!~ To make it worst I took sociology and now Im on the topic about marriages... people around me keep talking about why get married?, nowsaday divorces rate so high because we are so indiviualistic blah blah blah... ya I know so sad that the society has taken such a turn...
Its coming 2 weeks since our speration... dint know we have seperated so long, but its a good sign now. Since more or less we are both settle back to our own life.... can't help to still feel abit sad about what has happen.. but can't help, maybe is the GOD's will to send us a test to prove ourselves whether we are worthy of the love.
Sometime I cant stand a friend of mine- can't mention who she is but not my circle of friends. She is so ignorant... and sad to say she has a small brain... She told me you must have *** to keep a guy with you... What Kind of theory is that?? She even told me that her bf say, if she don't have *** with him for some time, he would rather leave her... so sad to say that their relationship is depend so much on physical rather than mental & spirtual.. To make it even sad, she has to keep an eye on her bf action every time (but they have common friends- coz her bf is anti-social dont have friends at all). I wish I can tell her, believe me if you let him loss for a week or so, he will hook up with another girl and will never come back. Coz he "DON'T LOVE YOU AT ALL!~!~ ALL HE WANTS IS YOUR BODY, STUPID!"(-_-!) Why you need to benefit these dirty guys, that love you only because of that?? Is it obvious that when he say " I will break off with you, if you dont have *** with for some time" (-_-!). Is that called love?? NO!~!~~ NO!~! Love is not equal to ***~~! Well, just want to write out so that I can feel better. or else its a secret so hard to keep leh!~!~ and I can't tell this to her face.. Maybe I should tell, been a sister of hers, I should tell her that. But on second thought, better not- She will hate me or maybe she won't listen to what I say also.
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